Derailed…But Beginning Again
To ‘fall off the wagon’, according to the Urban Dictionary, is to resume an addictive/compulsive behavior one is trying to control. Some synonyms are: to get derailed, to backslide, to have a relapse.
I allowed myself to get derailed. It happened while I was distracted with stress and traveling. Those aren’t excuses, just the honest situation. It didn’t ‘just happen.’ I allowed it to happen because I wasn’t careful and I got lazy. It’s not just about looks for me, although I do feel better about myself when I am thinner and can wear cute clothes! It is also about my health; how I feel. I have fewer aches and pains when I am not carrying extra pounds and I have a lot more energy as well. I enjoy life more when I am healthy. It really all comes down to that.
So, it’s frustrating and can really leave me feeling completely defeated to be almost back where I started a couple years ago. But because I really detest the word defeat, and I refuse to fail, I will get back up, brush myself off, learn from my mistakes and begin again. This train is back on track, baby!
I know what I need to do to get the weight off. Now I am learning what I need to do to maintain my new weight, so as to not waste all the hard work and effort I put into losing it. I don’t claim to have all the answers or to have achieved all my goals at this point. I only know what I am learning in my present situation, and that I am willing to work hard to put those things into practice. I know what direction I need to head and what things I need to change for me to meet my goals. Maybe someone else will find these “6 Lessons Learned” a valuable place to restart their journey as well.
Fit & Fearless after Fifty 